2012 was an interesting year. There were new relationships formed, old relationships lost, friendships made, friendships broken, heartache, pain, happiness, and joy. It was up and down for 365 days, but this year will be different.
I have never really been one to make New Year Resolutions, but this year felt different; it felt as if I needed a push to be the amazing girl I think I can become. This year will be MY year.
- I will find a job, no, a career, that I absolutely love. No more settling for a salary and benefits. I want to be happy and love the work I do.
- I will be healthy and work out as much as time allows. If time does not allow me, I will MAKE time. If I eat something unhealthy, I won’t punish myself: I will just work out longer and harder.
- I will mend relationships that I have lost throughout the past couple of years, and hope that bonds can be reformed.
- I will make more time for myself; regardless of boyfriends, friends, social events, and whatnot… sometimes I just need my blanket and a book.
This year will have 365 days of ups.
After Hurricane Sandy, I thought the destruction of two cars, lack of power for 14 days, and part of my sanity disappearing would be all I had to bare through the duration of 2012. I wish 2012 ended with only material loss, but my world changed this weekend.
Sunday night I lost my grandfather. He was 90 years old with more knowledge than most people could ever hope to gain throughout their lifetime. He had been through multiple wars, multiple battles within his own life, and still had a smile to share with the world.
During the past year as he fell ill, his jokes and sarcasm never quit. Any serious story he would tell, always ended with a not-so-serious punchline. Sometimes the point came where you didn’t know if he was making a joke or recalling a humorous memory. He laughed regardless, so no one bothered to ask for clarification.
To my mother, he was her hero; therefore, he was my superhero. Everyone thought he would live forever. Live like a superhero saving everyone from everything. He was there for my mother no matter the circumstance, even if it meant catching on fire in order to save her life (which really did happen). He was there for me, but I wish I could have been there for him through the latter years of his life. I don’t want to live my life with regrets of not calling him as much as I should have, but it’s hard not to think about what I could have done differently. I know he would want me to be happy and remember him for the badass that he was, so I’ll get through the tears by thinking of the laughter he gave me.
I will always miss him, and I will never stop loving him. He is most definitely talking everyone’s ears off up above.
Cutest Grandpa Ever. Rest in Peace.
It’s been an emotional few weeks, and this song really brings it home.
I have been getting my hair cut by the same stylist since high school. My mother, sister, and I have followed her through different salons in order to keep our pretty little heads in style.
Recently, I cheated on her.
I KNOW. I can’t believe it either. I never thought I would let another human trim my mane, but I succumbed to the pressure, and let my colorist cut my hair.
The sad part? I love it. It is thinned out at the bottom, has lots of layers, and looks so much prettier! It’s flowy and sexy and… I think I am in a new hair relationship. I don’t know how to break the news to my other stylist, but I am in love with a new one!
My hair has always been very bluntly cut (which has been by my request), but I never realized how much life and body it could have with one haircut.
I couldn’t find a good picture of my old style, so this will have to do… but I can never go back!
One Length. Thick hair. Blunt cut.
And my new style?!
Flowy, blonde, and healthy(looking).
Newly single and extra sassy! Can’t wait for my weekend in Cape Cod so my freshly cut hair can get a little saltwater and sun before the summer comes to an end. Have an excellent Labor Day Weekend, everyone!
New discovery: Christopher Norman.
This song “Maps” is so intoxicating. I am so deep into the lyrics and the tune, I can’t even think of what to write. Just enjoy.
Your voice keeps playing back in my head.
[Edit: Instead of deleting this entire entry, I deleted the post… but it is only fair to explain why:
I mentioned some things that have changed since even August 16th. I don’t necessarily care to disclose the information I am talking about at the moment, but I felt like deleting the entry entirely would cause confusion.
I may have just caused way more confusion than necessary, though. Whoops.]